Living on my own for the first time in 25 years was one of the easier ones. Living on my own for the first time in 25 years with a 3 year and a 6 year old was a little tougher, but still on my easy list.
The tough challenges are the ones that come from the inside. I've had to learn some things about myself all over again..
that not everything is my fault
that it is ok to have boundaries
that it is ok to love someone with every ounce of my being
that it is ok to be loved by someone with every ounce of their being
that I am loved by my Savior where I am and how I am and
that He's not done with me yet!!
Just yesterday, I fought the battle of insecurity. Insecurity that I wasn't good enough, pretty enough, or talented enough. Thankfully, I have wonderful people in my life that aren't afraid to call me out on it and to remind me that there are 24 hours a day that go by when the enemy will try to tear me down.
I sat in the church parking lot on the phone in tears with a precious friend while she prayed for me. She reminded me that this is a battle that the Lord has already fought and won for me. Amen, can someone remind me of that EVERY day!?
I am fighting a fight that has already been won, but yet I'm standing with my weapons. It's time for me to lay them down at the foot of the cross and let my Father in Heaven continue to fight for me.
I hear this song, on average, about twice a day, but when I heard it today, it finally sank in. Every word of this song fits my life perfectly. "Thank God, redeemed!"